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dictate my happiness

why with all the many people around...i can't find someone i can love? someone i can treat extra special. someone i know i am special too

i am soo fed up with the distinctively monotonous life i am forced to live. but i can't deny the fact that deep down i'm scared. scared of loosing almost everything again. scared of all the harsh realizations that are waiting for me. scared of being uncertain at one point or another.scared.just plain scared

once i told myself that hating me won't help me...o0...but i can't restrain myself from doing so whenever the situation calls for it. i hate it when i anchor my weakness into a particular being. i hate it when it will even reach a point where i'll be too hard-headed that i can't even give myself a telling-off

i wanna jeer at myself...for faking strength when i'll fall on my knees sooner than expected. i hate it when i try to lure myself into this lunatic dimension of false happiness.

i wanna be able to tell the world that for once, i'm an owner of a genuine happiness that has an expiry date of more than a month..no lagging in-between.

know what?i'd give anything in this world for that...

---> i missed this blog....bcoz before...this is my LIFE.....ü

futaah

god ang complicated na!haha..dufus

mmmm...don't mind me..i just had this sudden urge to give my xanga site some due justice and update its layout...

humhum....it got a lil bit complicated.....waah...but soo god damn happy..its our sembreak na...hella week!!

i got a nbrand new lj..yahoo..haha...http://bitchy09.livejournal.com/ kaso it's sooo pang amateur..hehe..xe i am an amateur...=)

July 1st, 2006

humhum

o_0  HAY NKO SA MGA BUMIBISITA PRIN D2..SLMT SA INYO...MHL KO KAYO!!!!!=)

copy paste lng from multiply...grabe...cnt afford nko gmwa ng unique entry noh...wehhh?!?!?!?!?

hay nko...grabe huh..kelan pa last entry ko?!may 25..o_0

anyhoo..we just had our skin test knina..yuck still bitter about it..di joke..our sked is super nkakabadtrip..as in sobra..grabe tipol mgbago bago ka nmn!!!

our original sched says we'll only have classes from tues-fri..now we'll have classes from mon-sat ...AGAIN...dammit..

healthcare lectures during mondays is quite understandable..we have no other day to place it..besides we need it..pero transfering HECO on a saturday slot when it was doing fine on a 7:30-10:30 sched during wednesdays is simply outrageous...--_--

i always dread tuesdays...7:30-6..hell dba?! with a break of 12-12:30...pucha san kpa?!?!??!?!

wednesday is awful..ppsok ka lng sa skul pra mg pe?! wut the?!?!? tas a PAT class dat is held every other week?!?!? crap!!!

thursday is just d same as tues...and friday....ugh don't ask..!!!!!

7-5?!?! lam nio kung gus2 nmen mgpakamatay ssbhin nman namen eh!!!!!!!!

pewo excited aq sa saturday...hanggang 10:30 lng kme..dvd marathon kila tin after class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yey!!!!!!!!!!!=p

naiirita ako sa heco...at sa stat...leche...kalechehan tlga!....prng sorta waste of time...hehe..di joke...ayoko nman bumagsak...